I drink
until I get drunk.
Then I try to drink some more.
I find myself
drowned in tequila at 1am.
It is me at my most honest.
It is me
looking for a home
and finding myself placeless.
Tonight I saw myself in the blue lights of cop cars
as I struggled to walk by.
I strayed outside my body
and asked the universe where I was meant to be.
I did not get an answer.
I stumbled into an unfamiliar bed-
alone
still drunk
still placeless.
Never quite at home in this world.
Never not at home in this world.
Somewhere in between.
Somewhere unknown.
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