My God and Yours
i thought we were one & the same
you and i.
made of the same breath from the same God.
now your god refuses to speak to my God
because my God created life & and loves unconditionally.
because my God created life yours does not deem worthy
of unconditional love.
your god tells you to tell me you love me deep
while simultaneously asking
you to root for my extiction.
your god has you in meeting rooms
deciding the best way to erase me.
your god sends you out to say i need healing
from who i am
& then reminds you to share the suicide hotline number
so i don’t start drowning in hate.
if i die where do i go after judgement?
did your god instruct you
to say your god won’t let me into heaven
on the basis of who i love?
i am not sure i want to enter heaven
if it is run by your god.
is this the kingdom you fight so hard for?
my God’s heaven is big enough for love.
can you say the same?
if i had to stand judgement in front of your god
i would ask permission to recite my eulogy.
from what you have preached
i understand your god knows all my wrongs
and habitually overlooks what i get correct.
i want to force your god to see me for more
than the sum total of my mistakes & shortcomings.
i want your god to look me in the eyes
& then have to turn me away.
isn’t that what you implied would happen
right before I’m sent to hell?
you wanted to know why i choose to serve my God
instead of yours?
before i realized there was a choice
i tried to follow your god.
i came as i was
and your god abandoned me
on the doorstep of a building full of people
that never intended to try to make a place for me.
you left me in the cold.
my God met me in that cold.
my God refuses to pick & choose who to love.
my God is love
unconditional.
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Alternate titles:
*thoughts i have when i see a church has an instagram page dedicated to their anti-gay movement*
*thoughts i have when i see christians rooting for my unexistence*
*i would like to have a talk with this god of yours*
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