We create the walls with our words
and anyone that is different is an ‘other.’
They are never given the keys to the city
or space at the table.
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I heard the pastor tell me my love was sinful and wrong.
I sat in the audience behind this wall.
I had family say being gay is a mental illness and abomination.
I was on the other side, hurt.
I was on the other side, alone. Unable to reach out.
My teachers compared homosexuality to marrying dogs.
I stayed quiet. I wondered if I married a girl would I be the dog or would she?
My school administration said that “gays were welcome but it may be a hostile environment for them.”
I wondered if this was their way of trying to inspire
and equip me to serve like Christ did.
I wonder, briefly
if we know the same God.
I heard friends call each other dyke and gay as an insult.
I was terrified they’d call me the same if they knew.
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I heard so much hate.
Will they hate me too if they find out who I am?
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