things i tell myself when the shame gets too loud

sure, i am battling. 
but i am not david. 
i don’t have to face all my giants. 

i can pack my stuff & leave. 
running can be the bravest choice when the walls close in. 
running as a form of fighting. 

running can mean this time i don’t have to stay. 
my blessings can find me on the road: this suffering isn’t necessary. 

heart, do ya hear? 
it was time. 

goodbye as a lifeline. 
goodbye as a new day. 
goodbye as an avenue, a time capsule, an i love me note. 

goodbye because i am trying to believe i am worthy of my breath.