On Survival

Survivor but don’t say it too quickly
because I have not yet survived today.
Nevermind tomorrow.
Which will come if it does
& I will breathe if I do.
A self in a body that is mine
once taken by force
only to be claimed back when I declared myself alive.

& this body still a good body
I guess.
Like it doesn’t work how it used to
after all this time
after all this violence
all this broke
but somehow this morning I woke up.